Just A Little More Time

By Julie Grey

As I laid and watched you sleep,
I prayed to God your love to keep.
That I might die instead of face
that loss of love,
a fall from grace.

The space you needed I did give,
no demands I made,
nor interests forbid.
Unconditionally, I did care;
Of your every desire I was so aware.

Like the butterfly I held too close,
you fluttered away as I would coax.
While you looked for flowers more pretty than I,
I waited here, & wished to die.

I know now those things that I gave you,
were the things I wanted for me,
it's true.
A safe place for resting,
warm laughter, a smile.
A place that felt like home for a while.

The space I gave you was the space I did need,
no demands I wanted,
time for my interests to seed.
Unconditional love with the freedom to fly,
if I had really been listening,
I'd have known it was I.

Now as I lie before I sleep,
I pray for a little more time to keep.
That I may live long enough to face,
another true love,
then a passing with grace.